I Have Lost Myself

I Have Lost Myself
I Have Lost Myself

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If memory is the core of our identity, what happens to our sense of self when it is lost?

“The more I performed as my mother the more I became her.

I am slowly losing myself just as my mother is losing herself.

I’m taking on my mother’s identity by performing her, by caring for her and writing about her. By shooting a film a day I’m forced to film when I don’t always want to.”

I Have Lost Myself are the words spoken by Doctor Alzheimer’s first diagnosed patient with Alzheimer’s disease.  When my mother was diagnosed I became her full-time carer.

The Manchester School of Art MFA Photography (2017) multi-channel video and sound installation, I Have Lost Myself and Give Me the Key, is a powerful and disturbing compilation from 300+ videos, depicting the raw and honest portrait of living with dementia and the blurring of artist process.

I Have Lost Myself documents the daily rehearsals and technical experiments of Give Me the Key, filmed daily over thirty days for a future live art performance. What unfolds is the colliding of performance and the every day as the artist slowly loses her sense of self.

I Have Lost Myself is a powerful and disturbing statement on family relationships and responsibility, where art and the every day inevitably collide.

I Have Lost Myself – HD Video, 28:09 minutes, color/sound

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If memory is the core of our identity, what happens to our sense of self when it is lost?

I Have Lost Myself are the words spoken by Doctor Alzheimer’s first diagnosed patient with Alzheimer’s disease.  When my mother was diagnosed I became her full-time carer.

The Manchester School of Art MFA Photography (2017) video installation, I Have Lost Myself and Give Me the Key, is a powerful and disturbing compilation from 300+ videos, filmed daily over 30 days, depicting the raw and honest portrait of living with dementia and the blurring of artist process.

I Have Lost Myself documents the daily rehearsals and technical experiments of Give Me the Key, filmed over a thirty-day period for a future live performance. What unfolds is the colliding of performance and the every day as the artist slowly loses her sense of self.

I Have Lost Myself is a powerful and disturbing statement on family relationships and responsibility.

I Have Lost Myself – HD Video, 28:09 minutes, color/sound

I Have Lost Myself by Ginger Liu

 

I Have Lost Myself by Ginger Liu
I Have Lost Myself by Ginger Liu

If memory is the core of our identity, what happens to our sense of self when it is lost?

I Have Lost Myself are the words spoken by Doctor Alzheimer’s first diagnosed patient with Alzheimer’s disease.  When my mother was diagnosed I became her full-time carer.

Her Manchester School of Art  MFA Photography (2017) video installation, I Have Lost Myself and Give Me the Key, is a powerful and disturbing compilation from nearly 300 videos, filmed over 30 days, depicting the raw and honest portrait of living with dementia and the blurring of artist process.

I Have Lost Myself documents the daily rehearsals and technical experiments of Give Me the Key, filmed daily over a thirty day period for the production of a live performance piece about living with dementia. Yet what unfolds is the fusing of performance and reality as the artist slowly loses her sense of self.

I Have Lost Myself is a powerful and disturbing statement on family relationships and responsibility, where art and real life inevitably collide.

I Have Lost Myself – HD Video, 28 minutes, color/sound