I Have Lost Myself

I Have Lost Myself
I Have Lost Myself

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If memory is the core of our identity, what happens to our sense of self when it is lost?

“The more I performed as my mother the more I became her.

I am slowly losing myself just as my mother is losing herself.

I’m taking on my mother’s identity by performing her, by caring for her and writing about her. By shooting a film a day I’m forced to film when I don’t always want to.”

I Have Lost Myself are the words spoken by Doctor Alzheimer’s first diagnosed patient with Alzheimer’s disease.  When my mother was diagnosed I became her full-time carer.

The Manchester School of Art MFA Photography (2017) multi-channel video and sound installation, I Have Lost Myself and Give Me the Key, is a powerful and disturbing compilation from 300+ videos, depicting the raw and honest portrait of living with dementia and the blurring of artist process.

I Have Lost Myself documents the daily rehearsals and technical experiments of Give Me the Key, filmed daily over thirty days for a future live art performance. What unfolds is the colliding of performance and the every day as the artist slowly loses her sense of self.

I Have Lost Myself is a powerful and disturbing statement on family relationships and responsibility, where art and the every day inevitably collide.

I Have Lost Myself – HD Video, 28:09 minutes, color/sound

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Give Me the Key

Give Me the Key

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Give Me the Key is a performance of psychotic demands and emotions caused by Alzheimer’s disease. Originally intended as a live performance, the audio and video installation is part of the accompanied I Have Lost Myself thirty-day film project which presents the everyday rehearsals and confessions of the artist process.

Inspired by Carl Dreyer’s “The Passion of Joan of Arc” (1928), performances are filmed in extreme close-up to emphasize the actor’s emotions and invoke audience response.

The Manchester School of Art MFA Photography (2017) multi-channel video and sound installation,  I Have Lost Myself and Give Me the Key, is a powerful and disturbing compilation from 300+ videos, filmed daily over 30 days, depicting the raw and honest portrait of living with dementia and the blurring of artist process.

Give Me the Key is a powerful and disturbing statement on family relationships and responsibility, where art and the every day inevitably collide.

Give Me the Key – HD Video, 11 minutes, color/sound, loop

I Have Lost Myself teaser

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If memory is the core of our identity, what happens to our sense of self when it is lost?

I Have Lost Myself are the words spoken by Doctor Alzheimer’s first diagnosed patient with Alzheimer’s disease.  When my mother was diagnosed I became her full-time carer.

The Manchester School of Art MFA Photography (2017) video installation, I Have Lost Myself and Give Me the Key, is a powerful and disturbing compilation from 300+ videos, filmed daily over 30 days, depicting the raw and honest portrait of living with dementia and the blurring of artist process.

I Have Lost Myself documents the daily rehearsals and technical experiments of Give Me the Key, filmed over a thirty-day period for a future live performance. What unfolds is the colliding of performance and the every day as the artist slowly loses her sense of self.

I Have Lost Myself is a powerful and disturbing statement on family relationships and responsibility.

I Have Lost Myself – HD Video, 28:09 minutes, color/sound

I Have Lost Myself by Ginger Liu

 

I Have Lost Myself by Ginger Liu
I Have Lost Myself by Ginger Liu

If memory is the core of our identity, what happens to our sense of self when it is lost?

I Have Lost Myself are the words spoken by Doctor Alzheimer’s first diagnosed patient with Alzheimer’s disease.  When my mother was diagnosed I became her full-time carer.

Her Manchester School of Art  MFA Photography (2017) video installation, I Have Lost Myself and Give Me the Key, is a powerful and disturbing compilation from nearly 300 videos, filmed over 30 days, depicting the raw and honest portrait of living with dementia and the blurring of artist process.

I Have Lost Myself documents the daily rehearsals and technical experiments of Give Me the Key, filmed daily over a thirty day period for the production of a live performance piece about living with dementia. Yet what unfolds is the fusing of performance and reality as the artist slowly loses her sense of self.

I Have Lost Myself is a powerful and disturbing statement on family relationships and responsibility, where art and real life inevitably collide.

I Have Lost Myself – HD Video, 28 minutes, color/sound