I Have Lost Myself

I Have Lost Myself
I Have Lost Myself

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If memory is the core of our identity, what happens to our sense of self when it is lost?

“The more I performed as my mother the more I became her.

I am slowly losing myself just as my mother is losing herself.

I’m taking on my mother’s identity by performing her, by caring for her and writing about her. By shooting a film a day I’m forced to film when I don’t always want to.”

I Have Lost Myself are the words spoken by Doctor Alzheimer’s first diagnosed patient with Alzheimer’s disease.  When my mother was diagnosed I became her full-time carer.

The Manchester School of Art MFA Photography (2017) multi-channel video and sound installation, I Have Lost Myself and Give Me the Key, is a powerful and disturbing compilation from 300+ videos, depicting the raw and honest portrait of living with dementia and the blurring of artist process.

I Have Lost Myself documents the daily rehearsals and technical experiments of Give Me the Key, filmed daily over thirty days for a future live art performance. What unfolds is the colliding of performance and the every day as the artist slowly loses her sense of self.

I Have Lost Myself is a powerful and disturbing statement on family relationships and responsibility, where art and the every day inevitably collide.

I Have Lost Myself – HD Video, 28:09 minutes, color/sound

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Give Me the Key

Give Me the Key

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Give Me the Key is a performance of psychotic demands and emotions caused by Alzheimer’s disease. Originally intended as a live performance, the audio and video installation is part of the accompanied I Have Lost Myself thirty-day film project which presents the everyday rehearsals and confessions of the artist process.

Inspired by Carl Dreyer’s “The Passion of Joan of Arc” (1928), performances are filmed in extreme close-up to emphasize the actor’s emotions and invoke audience response.

The Manchester School of Art MFA Photography (2017) multi-channel video and sound installation,  I Have Lost Myself and Give Me the Key, is a powerful and disturbing compilation from 300+ videos, filmed daily over 30 days, depicting the raw and honest portrait of living with dementia and the blurring of artist process.

Give Me the Key is a powerful and disturbing statement on family relationships and responsibility, where art and the every day inevitably collide.

Give Me the Key – HD Video, 11 minutes, color/sound, loop

Artist Statement

Ginger Liu
Ginger Liu

Born in Los Angeles and raised in England by Chinese and British parents, Ginger Liu’s work investigates the intersections of memory, identity, culture, and performance.

Ginger has photographed live art theatre in Los Angeles since 2007, producing thousands of images with more than eight million Flickr views since 2013. She has promoted independent film and art in Los Angeles and across the world and has produced images and text for numerous publications. In 2013, she opened GLIUSTUDIO where she produced portraits, editorial and promotional projects for artists and filmmakers in Hollywood. As Creative Director, Ginger has collaborated with burlesque and cabaret artists in Los Angeles, culminating in the ongoing GLIUSTUDIO project, Burlewood, which combines images of contemporary and classic Hollywood portraits, live performance and interviews. Ginger’s absorption in performance led to her MA Photography (2016) self-portrait series, Saudade: AmericanLook at Me I’m Sandra Dee; a series of composited identities lost in nostalgia and cheated Hollywood dreams. The Johanneans 1-4 is a multilayered investigation into her father’s upbringing in Shanghai during the 1920-40s and family life in America in the 1960s; including photographs, video, audio, archives and a travel memoir of a reunion and road trip across China. Dear Noni and John is the reading of more than 100 letters, written from her aunt in Liverpool to her mother in Los Angeles during the 1960s. Her Manchester School of Art MFA Photography (2017) video installation, I Have Lost Myself and Give Me the Key, is a powerful and disturbing compilation from 300+ videos, filmed over 30 days, depicting the raw and honest portrait of living with dementia and the blurring of artist process. She is currently developing her first feature which traces her mother’s memories of Liverpool and Los Angeles and a live performance of Give Me the Key.

Her work has shown at Manchester’s Holden Gallery, Liverpool’s Look International Photography Festival, London’s Photomonth, Los Angeles’s Think Tank and Perfect Exposure Gallery. She is a contributing editor of New York arts Ragazine and a consultant, writer, and promoter of independent film.

Ginger divides her time between London, Los Angeles, and Liverpool and is the founder of Ginger Media & Entertainment.

MFA Photography (2017) – Manchester School of Art

ActUpNorth Actors Workshop (2016 – ongoing )

Arts4Dementia Early-Stage Dementia Awareness Training for Arts Facilitators (2016)

BA (Hons) Contemporary Media Practice (1994) – University of Westminster

BTEC National Diploma in Photography – Southport College of Art (1990)

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Exhibits:
Holden Gallery – Manchester 2016
Edinburgh House – Manchester 2016
Accidental Archives – Manchester 2016
ThinkTank Gallery – Los Angeles 2014
Perfect Exposure Gallery: “Monday Night Tease Retrospective.” 2013. Los Angeles.
Look11 Liverpool International Photography Festival. 2011. “Hollywood.”
The Assembly Rooms London: “Strange Bedfellows.” 2010 – London Art Fairs and East London’s Photomonth Festival.
New Puppy Gallery Los Angeles: “Framed Stories.” 2010.
DRKRM Gallery Los Angeles: “The Last Picture Show.” 2009.
Finalist Federation of European Photographers. 2012. Lyon.
Silver Winner of the London Photographic Association Portraiture ‘The Nude 2’ competition.
Education:
MFA Photography – Manchester School of Art – Manchester Metropolitan University
MA Photography – Manchester School of Art (MMU)
BA (Hons) Contemporary Media Practice (Film, Media & Photography) The University of Westminster. London.
BTEC National Diploma in Photography Southport College of Art and Technology Merseyside.

 Writing:

I Have Lost Myself teaser

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If memory is the core of our identity, what happens to our sense of self when it is lost?

I Have Lost Myself are the words spoken by Doctor Alzheimer’s first diagnosed patient with Alzheimer’s disease.  When my mother was diagnosed I became her full-time carer.

The Manchester School of Art MFA Photography (2017) video installation, I Have Lost Myself and Give Me the Key, is a powerful and disturbing compilation from 300+ videos, filmed daily over 30 days, depicting the raw and honest portrait of living with dementia and the blurring of artist process.

I Have Lost Myself documents the daily rehearsals and technical experiments of Give Me the Key, filmed over a thirty-day period for a future live performance. What unfolds is the colliding of performance and the every day as the artist slowly loses her sense of self.

I Have Lost Myself is a powerful and disturbing statement on family relationships and responsibility.

I Have Lost Myself – HD Video, 28:09 minutes, color/sound

I Have Lost Myself by Ginger Liu

 

I Have Lost Myself by Ginger Liu
I Have Lost Myself by Ginger Liu

If memory is the core of our identity, what happens to our sense of self when it is lost?

I Have Lost Myself are the words spoken by Doctor Alzheimer’s first diagnosed patient with Alzheimer’s disease.  When my mother was diagnosed I became her full-time carer.

Her Manchester School of Art  MFA Photography (2017) video installation, I Have Lost Myself and Give Me the Key, is a powerful and disturbing compilation from nearly 300 videos, filmed over 30 days, depicting the raw and honest portrait of living with dementia and the blurring of artist process.

I Have Lost Myself documents the daily rehearsals and technical experiments of Give Me the Key, filmed daily over a thirty day period for the production of a live performance piece about living with dementia. Yet what unfolds is the fusing of performance and reality as the artist slowly loses her sense of self.

I Have Lost Myself is a powerful and disturbing statement on family relationships and responsibility, where art and real life inevitably collide.

I Have Lost Myself – HD Video, 28 minutes, color/sound

Sunset Boulevard by GLIUPHOTO

#GLIUPHOTO ON ETSY The Sunset Boulevard series is a retro 1960s and 1970s inspired love affair with Hollywood and the movies. My abstract images were photographed from within a moving car, cruising down Sunset Boulevard on a warm summer night. The lights and colors and dreamlike effect of the images are my love letter to the City of Dreams.
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The Sunset Boulevard series is a retro 1960s and 1970s inspired love affair with Hollywood and the movies. My abstract images were photographed from within a moving car, cruising down Sunset Boulevard on a warm summer night. The lights and colors and dreamlike effect of the images are my love letter to the City of Dreams.

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